Today, I grew. Not literally, i haven't seen puberty in twenty years. I mean that I grew emotionally and spiritually. Today was spent running, reading, and writing. Improving myself, every single day. In one way or another, I try to get better. There's so much i still don't know. So I have to keep moving forward, never becoming complacent, yet never forgetting to be happy wherever that I am. Appreciating what I have, but always knowing that I deserve more.
The hard part of this journey is finding the balance. Trying to realize when your body needs to stop and rest, and that's hard, because I loathe sleeping. I hate it, but i love it. I'll sleep when I die. Unfortunately, my 36 year old body demands 4-6 hours of sleep. I'd rather use that time living life, but really, who am I kidding here. There's nothing like a long, slumber snooze underneath 500-thread count sheets that just came out of the dryer.
It's funny how a completely different outlook on life can change your viewpoints on so many different things. Sports. I used to be the biggest sports fan, rooting for every Philly team but now, it's different. Now, I realize that they're just men playing a game. They're men on a team that competes for a few hours a week against another team and that is called entertainment. On previous Sundays, I would awake with pregame football programs on my mind. Now, on Sundays, football is an afterthought. I'll make a half-hearted attempt to know when the Eagles are playing and I'll make a conscious effort to watch them play, but Now, it's not the same. I realized that my Sundays, which equate to 1/7th of my life - were spent watching T.V. These hours were spent gaining nothing. No knowledge was gained, no new skills were being learned, these hours were simply spent doing nothing but watching a form of entertainment.
I do, however, still watch Sportscenter daily. I accepted those 20-30 minutes as time being spent giving my brain a break. A small dose of brain 'downtime'.
So, think to yourself, how many hours of each day do you spend merely entertaining yourself? How much time do you spend learning nothing? Oh, you don't like reading? Listen to a clip of Napoleon Hill from YouTube instead of consuming yourself with your most recent status update on facebook. You Tube has clips from millions of philosophers and motivational speakers. Start learning; retaining only that which you feel lead to believe. If what you learn agrees with you (your spirit), then start learning more about it. Not everything you hear will agree with you, so if doesn't sound right to YOU, simply forget it. But you'll never know more than what you know at this moment if you don't search for answers. You know nothing compared with all that there is to know.
Stop wasting life. You get older every single day and life is not that long. Are you content knowing with everything you've learned and you're going to take that to your grave? Are you satisfied with your tiny little piece of the pie? Or do you want to know more? It's time to challenge what has been taught to you. Your current beliefs have become your beliefs only because someone before you instilled them in you. It's time to make YOUR OWN beliefs. Make your own decisions. Stop wasting time. We all deserve more.
****stay tuned for Crumbling Christianity - Part II ********
The hard part of this journey is finding the balance. Trying to realize when your body needs to stop and rest, and that's hard, because I loathe sleeping. I hate it, but i love it. I'll sleep when I die. Unfortunately, my 36 year old body demands 4-6 hours of sleep. I'd rather use that time living life, but really, who am I kidding here. There's nothing like a long, slumber snooze underneath 500-thread count sheets that just came out of the dryer.
It's funny how a completely different outlook on life can change your viewpoints on so many different things. Sports. I used to be the biggest sports fan, rooting for every Philly team but now, it's different. Now, I realize that they're just men playing a game. They're men on a team that competes for a few hours a week against another team and that is called entertainment. On previous Sundays, I would awake with pregame football programs on my mind. Now, on Sundays, football is an afterthought. I'll make a half-hearted attempt to know when the Eagles are playing and I'll make a conscious effort to watch them play, but Now, it's not the same. I realized that my Sundays, which equate to 1/7th of my life - were spent watching T.V. These hours were spent gaining nothing. No knowledge was gained, no new skills were being learned, these hours were simply spent doing nothing but watching a form of entertainment.
I do, however, still watch Sportscenter daily. I accepted those 20-30 minutes as time being spent giving my brain a break. A small dose of brain 'downtime'.
So, think to yourself, how many hours of each day do you spend merely entertaining yourself? How much time do you spend learning nothing? Oh, you don't like reading? Listen to a clip of Napoleon Hill from YouTube instead of consuming yourself with your most recent status update on facebook. You Tube has clips from millions of philosophers and motivational speakers. Start learning; retaining only that which you feel lead to believe. If what you learn agrees with you (your spirit), then start learning more about it. Not everything you hear will agree with you, so if doesn't sound right to YOU, simply forget it. But you'll never know more than what you know at this moment if you don't search for answers. You know nothing compared with all that there is to know.
Stop wasting life. You get older every single day and life is not that long. Are you content knowing with everything you've learned and you're going to take that to your grave? Are you satisfied with your tiny little piece of the pie? Or do you want to know more? It's time to challenge what has been taught to you. Your current beliefs have become your beliefs only because someone before you instilled them in you. It's time to make YOUR OWN beliefs. Make your own decisions. Stop wasting time. We all deserve more.
****stay tuned for Crumbling Christianity - Part II ********
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